Sorry for the lack of updates. I felt quite sian these few days especially when I know I need to attend the NUS interview on Thursday. Actually I don't know what I want. I'm thinking too much again. Should I choose SMU accountancy or should I just go NTU, the school that I have wanted to enter since secondary school? It's irritating when the school you want to enter doesn't give you the course you want. I don't understand why people with the same grades as me can attend NTU accountancy when I'm only allow to go for NTU business interview. This is so unfair you know. Or perhaps the god just wants me to go SMU, to allow myself and others to see my true potential? Actually many people don't think I'm suitable for SMU (maybe just a few), and even I'm doubting my ability to adapt to the school where students need to speak up and ask questions during every lessons. But actually who knows? You never try before so you will never know whether you are suitable or not. Like what my parents said, there will always be people like me (in terms of characters) that will enter the same school. And you know many of the students can take up double degree in their second year. This really sounds attractive. I guess I need to overcome my own fear and like what the interviewer told me, shy is not the problem, the problem is whether you are open enough to share your thoughts and ideas with people.

Okay, the other reason why I feel so sian is because I'm going to change job soon! It's still the same company and the same department but I'm changing from accounts payable to credit control(accounts receivable). It's not confirm yet but I guess they will want me although I will just work for 1 month. It's quite surprising that this job is introduced by my manager. I never even talk to her before (maybe during the CNY lunch) and she always look so stern. :p Anyway, I guess I will just need to get use to the new environment. I'm glad that Lydia said I will get use to all the new things very fast. I told WL that he must not leave me alone in SPH. He's like my only same generation buddy in SPH after Clarissa left. I'm so used to him being there to entertain me that I feel so down today because he's not here. :( We will not meet this week due to our interviews and his sister who is getting married soon. Glad that he SMS during lunch break and I was cheered up because of his thick-skinned compliments of himself (as usual).

Feel so sleepy right now. Gonna sleep soon, but I realise I haven't ask my dancers where they wanna go on Saturday. This Saturday will be Melvin's farewell party before he go into army and Yi Jie's first book out after he enters OCS. This two guys are super ma fan. One said he is okay with anything as long as we are together (ok, so we just sit in one circle and stare at each other from morning to night lar) while the other wants me to organise something meaningful without telling me what he wants (I seriously don't know what is consider as meaningful, should we go library to study from morning to night?) HAHA. But at least YJ said he is going to treat me when he is free! Whee~ Should I feel happy or guilty that this two guys have been treating me for N times le. Not to forget about the teddy bear Melvin bought for me a few weeks ago. That's why I always tell other people that I'm pampered by my parents and friends. But seriously guys, can you stop suaning me? It's getting irritating and I'm really tired of this childish stuff. Once or twice is okay but not always. I mean no one wants an almost 20 years (or older) old guy to do this on you right. :(