Summary of what I had done this week:
Monday
- Stayed back with Xixi to teach Esther and Yue Fan the CNY dance until 5pm.
Tuesday
- Had dance from 4.30pm -8 pm.
- Feel super stress because I cannot do the 翻身 properly. They said I think too much when I do my movement because I can do it perfectly well when I just relax.
Wednesday
- Dance from 3.30pm - 8pm.
- Before dance practice, we chatted with 吴老师 for a while and he said the school 要榨干他. I can feel that he is super stress too. That's why I really really don't want to disappoint him. Perhaps that's the reason why I feel so stress and tense these few days.
- Visited the JH dance group.
- Again, I can feel that laoshi is stress over what to choreograph for the JH's aristal.
- Lao shi said we improved! :D
Thursday
- Almost break down after exco meeting. My stress level is super high now.
- I felt depressed for the whole day.
- But I guess I feel much better at the end of the day because I told my parents about how stressful I am and chat with some friends like Marilyn at night. Without them, I think I will get depression.
Friday
- I'm tired of wearing a fake smile.
- I rarely smile or laugh nowadays.
- I don't find the jokes funny and I don't feel like talking at all.
- I hope tomorrow will be a better day for me....
