I think today's dance practice is not good. :( We really did badly especially for the mass part. Wu laoshi kept changing the movements and I think he is getting more and more impatient. We are moving very slowly now, we need a lot of time to learn just a simple step and to remember and familiarize with the movements. I hate myself for being a slow learner and unable to dance up to standard. I'm trying, but it's in a snail pace. I encourage them and help them but I think I need the most encouragement and helps. And I'm always afraid to look into Wulaoshi's eyes because I don't want to see the disappointment and irritation. Sometimes, smiling is the only way to cover up how depressing and sad I am.
Someone told me that he thinks I'm always very high and don't look stress or emo at all. Omg, and I seems to be so talkative in front of those closer friends from dance! I think this contradicts to how I behave in class. I don't really talk in class (except to my friends) and I think I don't really even talk during the break too. Some of them are from the same cca and they have their own problems and things to talk about. I don't like to irritate them by keep talking about dance and keep complaining about how stress I am. Recently, I don't even know what topic we should talk about because everyone is busy with their CCA. That's why I love to eat and talk with the dancers because we have common things to talk about and we can talk non-stop. I really love NJCD because I get to know a lot of awesome people. So we should Jia You together and work hard to achieve our goal :D
我不再在意别人怎么看我，
因为我发现世界上最重要的东西就是快乐。
只要我认为这么做我会开心，
我就会义无反顾地去做。
I don't want to care about how everyone judge me. I just want to be happy and enjoy my last year in NJC!
