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date/time Tuesday, October 30, 2007,6:30 PM
I admit I dun understand any of you. This is what that is bothering me these two years. The problem is that I feel that i'm not ur best best best friend. None of you told me what you think, you feel, what that is bothering you etc. It hurts, you know. Friend 'A' told me this BIG, UNBELIEVABLE, SERIOUS, SAD, DEPRESS news few months ago. I'm glad that i'm able to face this terrible news together with her when she's upset, I'm proud that I'm able to stand beside her as her best friend, consoling her and all of those things. However, she didt tell me about it when that incident happened on that day. Then, I rethink, is it because I'm her best friend who can share all our secret, or it happened so because every morning I'll be waiting for her at the bus stop, she told me this news to inform me not to wait for her?? I know i shouldn't be thinking this, it's too personal. But i think that I'm not a good friend, I dunno when she cried, when she tried to act brave although her heart had broken into pieces. Am i not a good friend? I've known friend 'B' for 6 years!! 6 years leh, many things happened during this 6 years. I've cried for hours because of our friendship, I've laughed with her, dance with her, everything. i thought that after so much 风风雨雨, we should be really close best friend, knowing everything about each other. Maybe till now then I realise that I'm wrong. I'm too innocent? Or is it her problem, i want to know her, I want to be her side, I really want to be her BEST BEST BEST friend ever, but maybe she's not. Whenever she's her problem, she finds another friend. What's her problem sia ?She knows her for 2 years only, and she think that friend is lazy, dun want to do anything, wateva. I know, maybe she's just want to talk to someone, someone who dun even need to open her mouth, but why not me? I'm always the one who protect her, talk to her, counsel her and even the only person who sincerely want to hug her because I really wants her as a friend. I gonna stop here. I just cant bear with it when my mum keep screaming into my ears like siao zar bo mad. PArents are so damn weird, sometimes, they act so friendly and nice that you can forget all your trouble, sometimes, they just ruin your happy mood. They are so selfish, when they're happy, they treat your as a baby, when they are annoyed or angry, they just treat you as their 出气筒. So unfair!!
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date/time Tuesday, October 30, 2007,6:30 PM
I admit I dun understand any of you. This is what that is bothering me these two years. The problem is that I feel that i'm not ur best best best friend. None of you told me what you think, you feel, what that is bothering you etc. It hurts, you know. Friend 'A' told me this BIG, UNBELIEVABLE, SERIOUS, SAD, DEPRESS news few months ago. I'm glad that i'm able to face this terrible news together with her when she's upset, I'm proud that I'm able to stand beside her as her best friend, consoling her and all of those things. However, she didt tell me about it when that incident happened on that day. Then, I rethink, is it because I'm her best friend who can share all our secret, or it happened so because every morning I'll be waiting for her at the bus stop, she told me this news to inform me not to wait for her?? I know i shouldn't be thinking this, it's too personal. But i think that I'm not a good friend, I dunno when she cried, when she tried to act brave although her heart had broken into pieces. Am i not a good friend? I've known friend 'B' for 6 years!! 6 years leh, many things happened during this 6 years. I've cried for hours because of our friendship, I've laughed with her, dance with her, everything. i thought that after so much 风风雨雨, we should be really close best friend, knowing everything about each other. Maybe till now then I realise that I'm wrong. I'm too innocent? Or is it her problem, i want to know her, I want to be her side, I really want to be her BEST BEST BEST friend ever, but maybe she's not. Whenever she's her problem, she finds another friend. What's her problem sia ?She knows her for 2 years only, and she think that friend is lazy, dun want to do anything, wateva. I know, maybe she's just want to talk to someone, someone who dun even need to open her mouth, but why not me? I'm always the one who protect her, talk to her, counsel her and even the only person who sincerely want to hug her because I really wants her as a friend. I gonna stop here. I just cant bear with it when my mum keep screaming into my ears like siao zar bo mad. PArents are so damn weird, sometimes, they act so friendly and nice that you can forget all your trouble, sometimes, they just ruin your happy mood. They are so selfish, when they're happy, they treat your as a baby, when they are annoyed or angry, they just treat you as their 出气筒. So unfair!!
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